You can tell it's almost Christmas

Lights every where. Gingerbread lattes. Christmas music in the stores. The warm feeling you get from giving. Nice gestures just because it's Christmas. Kids fighting constantly about what Santa is going to bring them. Yes, I love the holidays. Christmas kinda snuck up on me. Here it was barely Thanksgiving and I had plenty of time. Now it's a week away. When did that happen? We'll be wrapping up (pun intended) our shopping this weekend and hopefully the kids will survive to see it! I don't know if it's the anticipation, the excitement or what, but they have been fighting like crazy the last two days.

Starting in January I'm going back to school. I'm going to at least get my AA, if not continue and get my teaching credential. It feels good to have made that decision and to start moving foward with it. When I left school I always intended to go back. Much sooner than now, but I just never did. Only one other person in my family has graduated from college I think.

I think my daughter may have gotten into the wine. Right now she's wearing footy pajamas and she has pulled her arms and legs inside and is walking around on her knees. I swear I never dropped her when she was a baby.

That's what I get for thinkin'

While I'm looking forward to the kids have their vacation, I'm dreading it too. They're already fighting non-stop this afternoon. I can tell that we're going to be spending a lot of time at the park. I need to find some indoor activities for them to do and not drive me completely insane. Katie's teacher sent home a huge pile of homework for her to do over the break. Katie didn't seem bothered by it, so hopefully it won't be a fight to the finish. Mikel's teacher hasn't sent anything home yet, so I'm wondering if I should ask. I don't want him to forget some of the things he just learned. I also don't want them to be bored the whole time. I think we'll be making lots of library runs as well. My parents have a membership to the local zoo, so we can go there a few times. It's a pretty small zoo and you can only look at the elephants so many times. Mikel's getting to be too cool for the zoo. What I'm looking forward to the most is not having to get up at 5:30am for three whole weeks!!!! I can sleep in. Until 7am!!! No driving to school in a cold ass car! No muttering complaints about the other drivers so no one sees me complaining and knows who I am. It's really hard to want to give someone a dirty look, but you can't because their kid might be in your kids class.

Jelly Bellys

Suggested Jelly Belly jelly bean flavors:

Appletini

McDonald's french fries

Burger King french fries

Ranch dressing

Caramel cheesecake

Glazed Doughnut

Peppermint Mocha Frapp

Bacon Double Cheeseburger

Bacon!

Combo Pizza

Ok, that's all I can come up with for now. Making this officially the lamest post ever!

My Fabulous Weekend

We went camping and I didn't take one picture. Brought both cameras, and no pictures. It was snowing, and no pictures! Obviously I'm very distraught over the non-picture taking. It was nice to get away. The kids had fun. That is until Sunday morning at the lovely hour of 6am, Katie woke up and threw up. What an awesome way to finish the weekend. The poor thing, she couldn't keep anything down. Luckily Bass Lake is only a little over an hour away from home, so we just brought her home a little early. By 2pm that day, she was fine though. Amazing how that stuff can hit and be gone all in one day.

H and I started couples therapy today. It may work out, it may not. But at least we can say that we tried. I still haven't heard from Mikel's doctor, but she said that it could take a couple of weeks to get approval.

I managed to get almost all of my christmas shopping finished today. I just have a few more things to get and then I'll be done. Almost as good as last year. Every year I swear I'm going to start earlier, and I do, I just seem to finish at the same time. The last damn minute. Maybe this year I should swear to finish earlier.

Gone campin'

We're going camping this weekend. Despite the rainy weather. Of course it's only for one night and we're sleeping in the trailer, so I don't know if it really qualifies as camping. It's mainly for the kids that didn't get to go to the desert over Thanksgiving. Hopefully I can get H to put the pictures on this computer when we get back. Bass lake is really pretty and now that it's rained a couple of times maybe there will actually be some water in it!

Mikel is sick. The doctor thinks he was starting to get a kidney infection. So he's taking some antibiotics and we can nip this thing in the bud. He was complaining that his stomach hurt and he threw up again this morning. Tuesday night he threw up half a dozen times in WalMart. As far as I'm concerned they deserved it any way. He was with H at the time, so I'm sure H was thrilled. And as far as I'm concerned H deserved it too! Lol, I kid. Mikel's on a restricted diet for a couple of days to let his stomach rest. He's really enjoying it. Like he'd enjoy doing a week's worth of homework in one day.

Everybody have a good weekend!

On a happy note!

I have officially lost 36 pounds!!!!! I still have 72 pounds to go. I thought I had more than that to lose, so really that was a pleasant surprise. I hadn't really sat down and done the math. I looked up a weight chart to give me an idea of what I should be aiming for. The chart says 114-127, but I think I'm going to aim for 130. We'll see once I get there how I feel about things. At this point I'd be happy to wear a size 14 again. I can't imagine what I'll look like at 130 pounds. It seems weird. Oh well, off to the treadmill!

More info.

Ok, so H told me that he talked to this woman while I wasn't speaking to him. Looking back on it, there wasn't ever a time when I wasn't totally not talking to him. We live in a house with 9 other people. You can't really ignore someone in all that. I have actually exchanged emails with this woman and she's really very nice. I don't blame her at all. Frankly I'm surprised she said anything. I think it's nice that not only did she protect herself, but she thought of me as well and while I'm hurt and extremely mad, I'm not mad at her. I appreciate her honesty, I really do. But getting back to the point. She emailed me transcripts of their chats. The dates don't match up. When H says this occured and the dates on the transcripts don't match. According to what she sent me, they were talking as recently as last Wednesday. Yes, a week ago and it wasn't just idle chit chat as you can well imagine. He was chatting with her while I cooked our Thanksgiving dinner. In the blessing before we ate he thanked God for his wife and family. The lying hypocritical bastard. Ugh, I'm so angry this post is falling apart. Enough for now.

Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away

I just wanted to see if I could get this to work.

Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away

I just wanted to see if I could get this to work.

This just sucks

We talked some last night. Then today I remembered, once before I found info. from a dating site in our email. This makes me wonder, is this something he's been doing all along. He swears that talking is all he's done, but isn't that enough? At some point would it have progressed to more than that? Isn't that how is starts? I just don't understand it. I'm not so sure I want to. Right now I'm pissed off and hurt. Monday we are going together to talk with his therapist. I'm hoping that it will help.

Just curious

What would you do if you received a message from someone you didn't know about your spouse indicating that they were on a "singles looking for . . . . ." type site? I received just such a message. When I asked H what it was, he didn't deny that he had talked to someone. His excuse was that I wasn't speaking to him at the time.

I'm not sure, but I think my world just fell apart.

I made it!!!

The last day of November. I'm surprised I actually made it. I figured I'd give up somewhere in the middle. Perhaps my excercising and whatnot helped me stick to it. I'm going to pat myself on the back and go eat lunch.

The boys are coming back tonight, so I need to prepare myself for the insanity. My mom has been sick all week so she's going to be camped out in her room trying to recover. That should make it fun. My dad disappears and my brother has to work. Oh joy.

On a more positive note, I finally got to see a therapist for an assesment for my son. She's really nice and doesn't think it's anything very serious and is going to help us work on it. She'll be seeing him once a week for "play therapy" and will also do some family counseling. I'm really looking forward to making some progress and hopefully getting a little closer to my son.

I totally saw that coming

I just checked my entries and the entry that I set to post on the 16th posted on the 15th. Stupid blogger! Not me. Blogger it's self. Darn you blogger! Darn you all to heck!!!!

I'm just tired. That's what I am.

It hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be to lose weight. But all the same, I'm tired of it. I need a break. I know I'm not even close to being done yet, and I'm not ready to give up. I'm just tired. Exhausted. Drained. I don't know if it was being sick. I still have a lovely cough. Or if I just need a break. Part of it might be that it's the holidays now and much of the celebratory stuff is food. Not just buy, buy, buy. But eat, eat, eat! I love food. I love to eat. Up until now I've acutally enjoyed finding things to eat that fit within my plan. I've tried and loved several things that I never would have eaten before. I think I might be suffering from burn out. Usually during December I bake. A LOT. I love baking. I need to try some low-sugar recipes. I just need to open myself up more. I really am enjoying all the excercise and how I feel, but I'm so damn tired. I just can't figure it out. I take my vitamins, I eat right, and I'm excercising. I think I need to go to the doctor. I get enough sleep. I went to bed at 9pm last night! I felt like a little old lady. I think I might be losing my hair too. The last two times I got my hair cut, the stylist said that I was "getting thin on top". Yikes! Something is amiss.

Grrrrrrrrr!!!!

Sometimes I just want to smack my husband. We're living with my parents right now. All four of us. In one room. So yes, everything is just rainbows and puppies and cute little, fluffy kitties. While waking up my daughter this morning my husband interuppted with,"are you through yet?" Excuse me? While you lay there and snore I get up early and get our children ready for school. Yes, it does indeed suck that we're all living in one room and that your ugly sleep is disturbed. But do you honestly think that I enjoy getting up while it's still dark so that I can get OUR kids up and ready for school? They are your kids too and you could get up off your lazy ass to help me instead of bitching about the noise I'm making while waking them up. Since when have children ever been able to do anything quietly? Almost never in case you didn't know.

So yeah, it kinda made me just a teensy bit mad. I didn't talk to him the rest of the morning. I'm still ticked off as a matter of fact. I think I'm going to give him a piece of my mind when he gets home too! To top it off, he didn't make the bed like I asked him to either. I need a glass of wine. Or twelve.

It must be some sort of cruel joke

The kids get three weeks for winter break. THREE WEEKS!! Has the school district lost it's collective mind? What are they thinking? Three weeks??!! Why? That is just wrong. What have I done to them? The only other thing I can say is that they better not have another week off in February for "President's Week". The kids spend more time on "vacation/break" than in school. What do parents that work do when their kids are out of school for weeks at a time? Daycare must be a royal bitch. Thank goodness I don't start work until the end of January. This is madness!

Almost there!

I can't believe November is almost over already. It certainly went by a lot faster than I thought it would. Posting every day wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Once I sat down and started typing, it was pretty easy. I have a feeling I babbled a lot. But I do that any way. I don't know that I'll post every day once November is actually over. Maybe it will be easier to post more often now that I've gotten into the habit.

The kids went back to school with no problems. Sometimes after a break they have a hard time getting back into the swing of things. We'll see how tomorrow goes. They could be lulling me into a false sense of security.

And it wasn't even a whole 24 hours!

The boys came and went. What a mess!! They were insanely tired and cranky. They had a wonderful time in the desert, but they were missing their mommy and wanted to go home. I'm bummed that I missed out on seeing lots of relatives that I haven't seen since before I got married.

H's new job is working out well so far. Thank goodness!! It's in town which is really nice. He won't have to commute.

The kids are ready to kill each other which means that they're ready to go back to school. They've missed their friends, and I miss them being gone all day.

I walked on my mom's treadmill yesterday. I'm so sore! I didn't realize what a difference walking on an incline makes. I think I'll torture myself on there from now on. I burned almost twice as many calories as I normally do. I felt great afterwards. Tired. Exhausted actually, but great.

I hope everyone has a great Sunday.

Are you sick of turkey yet?

More leftovers for dinner tonight! I need some more gravy. Since we missed out on having Thanksgiving dinner with my parents we may shoot for that tonight. Although I'm tempted to wait until Sunday night after the boys have gone home. It's hard to have a nice dinner with three wild children running about. Of course they might be worn out from their weekend in the desert! There's always hope right?

I slept in this morning. It was nice. As much as I like the kids being on vacation and not having to get up early, I'm looking forward to them going back to school on Monday. It will be nice to have my days to myself again. You'd think as kids get older that they'll entertain themselves more. Most of the time Katie does just fine, but she's been extraordinarily bored this week. She had taken to following me around and was literally a step behind me for about three days. I couldn't take it any more and told her she need to give me a few more steps. Mikel actually did pretty good this week. Ususally he gets bored really easy, but him and Katie got along really well this week. Lucky for me.

Now if you'll excuse me. Katie thinks a chocolate chip cookie is appropriate lunch time fare. I think I'm going to lock her in her room for a while.

Anybody want some pie?

I need to get rid of the pies. Pumpking and apple. Before I eat them. I did good yesterday. I ignored their calls, but today. Today is a different story. They're ignoring me and I just can't have that. I want to cover them in whipped cream and stuff them down my throat. Is pumpkin pie considered a vegetable? Can we claim apple pie as healthy because it contains fruit? I think we can. Whipped cream is dairy and dairy is good for you too!!

It was pretty quiet here yesterday. We watched the parade and cooked tons of food. We ate our own dinner then went and bugged the relatives. The kids just couldn't seem to settle down. Christmas is coming!!! They must get if from the stores. Thanksgiving wasn't even over yet and already, get the christmas decorations out. It's not even December. I refuse to decorate for christmas until December. It just doesn't seem right. It's not about going from one holiday to the next. What about all the life in between?????

So a pretty uneventful Thanksgiving. The turkey was the best I've made so far. Yummmyyyyyyy. Very quiet and relaxing. It was nice to spend time with just the four of us and enjoy each other. Until the kids started asking about all the stuff they wanted for Christmas and I sent them to play outside.